|I'm GETTING IT!
||[Sep. 11th, 2007 - 11:13 am]
Diabetics with Binge Eating Disorder or COE
|[||state of mind
for some strange reason, something clicked in my head, and i'm GETTING IT. for almost two weeks, i've been keeping my blood sugars to a normal level (with medication and insulin). I mean, picture perfect normal levels -- between 70 and 120 are my goals, and i'm coming in between 63 and 129. that is truly remarkable -- almost a modern miracle.
how? cutting back severely on portion sizes, primarily. and for the most part, i am not feeling deprived -- or depraved! (that was a joke, people!)
and i'm feeling so much better. not as moody, nor as lethargic.
i'm also feeling so much MORE!! it's hard to explain unless you've been there. . . . but a bunch of feelings are no longer blocked, and they are jumping up demanding to be heard/felt. in the past, i would have run from many of them, because many of them are, ahem, LESS THAN COMFORTABLE. giving myself permission to FEEL all this is very freeing -- and exhausting, and painful, and joyful, and demanding. and i'm doing it.
x-posted to diabetes