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I Hate Food [Nov. 7th, 2006 - 02:34 pm]
Diabetics with Binge Eating Disorder or COE


well, i also *love* food. way too much, it seems.

met with my nutritionist yesterday, and as usual, it was a very difficult situation. i hate talking about food, i hate admiting all that i truly eat, i hate examining my feelings around eating and the emotional food triggers i have, and most of all i Really Hate cutting back on my food.

the discussion went something like this:
me: having to cut down on my food is NOT FAIR.
Me, in response: that's true, however, the concept of 'fair' has no place in this discussion.

me: i have cut out enough substances from my daily life (booze, cigarettes, drugs, etc), and i'm Done cutting them out.
Me, in response: if that were true, my body wouldn't be complaining as loudly as it is.

me: i Don't Want To!!!
Me, in response: i know. you don't have to want to. you just have to do it.

(sounds alot like a newcomer to AA, doesn't it?)
unfortunately, this is alot harder than stopping drinking ever was!!!

so here i am at the lowest weight i've been at in over 7 years, and my blood sugars are going sky high. (as in 220-340) WHY?? no clue. and that's just the nature of the beast; sometimes the blood sugar goes wild and there is no obvious cause.
i spoke w/ my doc last nite and she said that we just have to up my insulin; so i did this morning; we'll see what happens. :::sigh:::

so i'm renewing my efforts at food control in the hopes of losing more weight. she even said, err, the nutritionist said, that it was perfectly reasonable to tell my kids that we won't be having sweets in the house for the foreseeable future, since it is very hard for me to be around them and not eat them. (?????!!?!?!?!?) i'm not sure i believe that it's ok to do that, any input?

anyway . .. . more later.

[User Picture]From: gleckia
2006-11-08 12:55 am (UTC)
yes, it is okay to get rid of the rest of the family's unhealthy food as well. I know it is hard, because I am having major troubles doing that too.

What I try to remind myself is that the diabetic *diet* isn't some fad weight loss thing, it is a balanced healthy diet, the kind that everyone *should* eat.

I also try to remind myself of a little part of my history, that my mother has type 1 diabetes and she always let me have sweets and other treats because she thought,"Why should I punish my daughter by not letting her have the treats just because I have to stay away from them?". The reason why is that I never learned to limit those items and now I am obese and I have type 2 diabetes. Would my issues be different if we had all followed her diet as I grew up? I don't really know, but maybe.

In Mom's defence, she had no idea that I would take the emotional eating to a whole new level once I got to college.

I have had the same kind of conversation with myself that you seem to have with yourself. Gosh, our inner selves are stubborn sometimes, aren't they?

If you are up for it, maybe we could all come up with one item that we will cut back on for the rest of November and substitute one healthy item. I have been concidering weighing my starches but always adding in a cup of milk. That kind of thing. Would that help? Or have you already tried something like that before?

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[User Picture]From: gleckia
2006-11-08 12:56 am (UTC)
sorry about any spelling issues, for some reason LJ decided to ignore my decision to check the spelling....hmmm.
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[User Picture]From: mobmama
2006-11-08 02:28 pm (UTC)
thanks for the response!

for the rest of November, i'm going to cut BACK on starches, and INCREASE my veggies. how about you?
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[User Picture]From: gleckia
2006-11-08 02:33 pm (UTC)
I will follow suit.
I will also cut BACK on starches and INCREASE veggies.
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